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OH MY GOD YOU GUYS. LOOK AT WHAT I FOUND.

Ladies and other ladies, I present to you: one of the first pieces of fanfiction I ever wrote. Sitting unnoticed on my computer, I give you the Emily Gilmore epic I wrote in, AT THE VERY LATEST, 2004. NO, REALLY. I remember when my mom came up to the spare bedroom which housed the giant Compaq desktop that served as the family computer at the time, and I was writing this, and she was like, "What're you doing?" and I was like, "Nothing," and she was like, "No, tell me," and I was like, "No seriously, NOTHING," and she was like, "TELL ME NOW," and I did and she walked away and never asked me what I was doing again. She doesn't get it, man. Men. Women. Ladies. (I'm almost giddy in the discovery of this ... monstrosity. It's not so much that it's bad, even though it's not great, it's just that it's ... so long. And so old. And so ... "Gilmore Girls.")

So. Yeah. Read ahead, if you dare. It's, like, 7000 words long. NO REALLY. I'm leaving the information section the way I originally had it written, as well as all the formatting, because really, guys: look how I spelled my name then. And the asterisks? COME ON, GUYS.

Title: Portrait of a Lady
Author: All Things Holy
Rating: PG
Character: Emily-centric
Feedback: Why yes, I’d love some.
Disclaimer: I love the characters, but alas, it was not fated to be so. And, obviously, the title belongs to Henry James.
Summary: "There were things you didn’t do, like live a life that was yours."
Spoilers: General, Seasons One through Four
A/N: This is set post-season four, with Rory and Emily taking the trip to Europe. It’s set at the end of the trip, I suppose, if it has to be set anywhere at all. And the Richard and any accidental magnificence in the story are entirely due to LulaBo, who held my hand through this entire thing and didn’t complain about the sweaty palms. A million thanks, love.

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( When she was in school, she was told that women behaved a certain way and led a certain kind of life. Back when she was Emily Stratton, when she was naïve and wanting a husband was all she knew to want. Back when ‘proper’ was taken to extremes, when girls never approached boys and never really decided for themselves. There were things you didn’t do, like swear or drink or be unconventional in any way. )

(Because it's nowhere on LJ, only ff.net and B&W&R, and I'd like to have a copy of it around here, for posterity or something. So. My very favorite fic I ever wrote, even though I only wrote half of it. Go poke Erica and ask her for more, why don't you?)

Author(s): holylulalicious! (lulabo & allthingsholy)
Disclaimer: We're just borrowing. We promise to put them back where we found them.
Summary: "I love you," she says simply. She doesn't know if it'll matter, doubts that it will fix anything, but she's learned tonight that she can have the strength she's always thought she had if she's willing to be weak for just a moment.
Spoilers: General through Season Five
A/N: This was written as a collaboration between authors allthingsholy and LulaBo and is a first attempt at joint fiction. Please forgive us any rough patches; we're new to the compromising thing and tried our best to get this right. With help from Ruby Garnet and Arianna, it went through many, many revisions. Then it went through many, many more. Over the course of the summer, it grew larger and larger until finally it took on a life of its own. We apologize for the size; we too marvel at our own verbosity. We hope you enjoy it. Hopefully, it'll be the first of many joint attempts.
Note: Originally posted 10/7/04 (wow). LJ can't handle the bigness of the file, so it's split into two. This is 1/2

( I used to think my life was often empty, a lonely space to fill....More than words I tried to tell you; the more I tried I failed. )

Title: Illusion
Rating: PG
Pairing: Luke/Lorelai; beta'ed by Lula
Summary: "If you were to ask each of them, separately of course, why the thing between them didn't work out, she'll tell you that they tried too hard; he'll tell you that they didn't try hard enough."

( The thing about illusions is that the closer you get to them, the easier it is to see that they aren't real. )

Title: Promises of a Long Lost Friend
Author: allthingsholy
Rating: PG
Pairing: Luke/Lorelai
Summary: “Never do you let yourself dream that it ends happily.”

"But I fear I have nothing to give, I have so much to lose here in this lonely place, Tangled up in our embrace, There’s nothing I’d like better than to fall, But I fear I have nothing to give, I have so much to lose."
-- Sarah McLachlan, "Fear"

( Lately, you find yourself watching her. )